Thinking of you

I am thinking of you today. Its taking everything not to text you. But I said I wouldn't and I need to honor that. And like I said, when I want to get ahold of you, I will just blog. That way I feel like I am getting the things I want to say to you off my chest.

You are moving today. I am hoping you have help with moving your things into the truck. I hope you are safe and careful. I have no possible way of knowing if you are ok. That bothers me the most. But I said I wouldn't message people. So I am not. Ugh. I think about you the most at night. When we used to talk. Now all i hear is silence.

Did you know silence is maddening? I know you enjoyed it sometimes, but when a person most needs to have the comfort of another voice, the silence is painful and mind-wrecking. Did you also know that a person's mind is more cruel and abusive to a person than any other being could possibly be? I can understand how some people go mad and want to commit suicide. I am not saying I am going to. I like living too much. I just hate that we can't communicate.

I know, I know, I brought this on myself.
I miss you.
I love you.