Empty MIND!!!

I want to be able to blog about things but not a whole lot has been happening.

I just got back from a handgun training course just outside of Las Vegas called Front Site. That was fun and very informative. We learned how to handle our guns, where to look when we are shooting, fix all types of malfunctions and how to remain safe while using our guns. No one got shot! Thank goodness. They also had lectures about constantly remaining alert and aware and how to talk when you have to use your gun for self defense in order to not be found guilty. It was overall a pretty good training. I hated being out in the sun for almost 8 hours straight....being a redhead, I try to avoid the sun like the plague.

The worst part was the 8 hour drive home while i was feeling SO sick! That was horrible!

Went back to work last night, wasn't too bad. We were super slow when I first got there and I was worried they were going to try to send me home early. Considering I had to ask for Mon-Wed off and Sun....I only work Friday and Saturday with a total of 8 hours for the week. I kinda needed to keep my hours. Luckily, it got a bit busier as the night went on. Wasn't too bad at all!

OK well I need to do something productive today....should i clean my room? My bathroom? do some more laundry? Or just procrastinate like I always do?

Until next time,
Rina

Echooo.....Echoooo

So i really don't think anyone really reads this. Which doesn't bother me very much because, well it's nice to know word won't get out to the people I actually talk about on here.

Work: I freaking hate my job! My boss is so bipolar psycho crazy bitch! She seriously verbally abuses us. I have heard from 3 different coworkers that she has told them on countless occasions "Don't go looking for another job because NO ONE will hire you". Honestly....who is she to say who will or won't get hired?! I think she should just keep her mouth shut and not worry about if they look for another job or not. She throws things when she is angry, she demands respect but doesn't dare dish it... She tells customers that I am good at everything I do but writes me up for something I wasn't guilty of and she wasn't even there to see... She mentions that many employees are talking about me. She claims she has known me since I turned 18 but in all honesty I don't think she has ever truly opened her eyes to see ME and how i react to things. First off don't yell at me....talk to me about something i need to change. Yelling at me makes me even more nervous and I make a whole lot more mistakes that I was making in the first place. Second off, praise me for what I have done and what I am doing. I am fully aware that you can't praise me for everything but I do EVERYTHING for Family Night....I have completely taken that load off your hands. and Third off...i don't react well to you telling me that my coworkers are complaining about me. It makes me more depressed and in a bad mood that my work ethics drop dramatically.

It's my Birthday and I'll cry if I want to.....

It is my FREAKING birthday....

All i feel like doing is crawling into bed and crying my eyes out.

I have never felt this alone before :-(

Boys are stupid!

Can I go back to bed now? I don't want to face this cruel world.

UGH....too sad to sign today.

Thoughts

I have so many thoughts and I need to get them down....but I have no down time till after work today....I WILL write them all down before I go to bed.