Days are slipping past

My days are all blurred together! It's been hard to get a chance to sit down and write when I have been so exhausted from working out and then work this weekend. I am hoping I will get a chance to write tonight....if not, then tomorrow.

Day one of Bootcamp

So Crysta didn't wake up in time for us to go to Crossfit on Monday so we ended up going this morning.

Started out with Tebata warm ups which is 6 rounds of doing a certain workout for 30 seconds with a 10 second rest between each round. WE did sit ups, lunges, squats, and push ups. Then we did at your own pace for 15 minutes 15 SDHP, which is where you pick up a kettlebell from the ground with both hands stand up straight, bring it to your chest and then bring it back to the ground. Works the arms as well as the hip muscles. Then 20 Kettle Bell swings which is where you hold the kettle bell with both hands between your legs and swing it high above your head and then bring it back down. 25 box jumps, since i can't do box jumps just yet, I did step ups. And then 30 punches on the punching bag.

I got through one round fine, second round I took a couple breathers and then my last round was the hardest. I was having trouble breathing and i felt like I was going to be sick. I didn't want to end with not finishing the round i started. So Crysta grabbed her kettle bell and worked through the last round with me. Another lady who was in the class with us, Sonja, stood next to me encouraging me to push it to the end. I ended up only doing 10 step ups on the box instead of 25 on the last round but i completed the 3rd round. I was tired and shaky but it felt so good to finish up.

It means so much to me that Crysta and a lady I didn't even know would stay next to me when they could be cleaning up and putting things away in order to help me push through my last round. It felt good to know that no matter how much I struggle through this journey to fitness, and there will be loads of struggles, I will have at least one person by my side to help push me through it and not abandon me. It meant so much that Crysta would finish with me even though she had already finished her round. It's nice to know someone believes in me even when I am too tired to continue believing in myself. <3

Another workout in the morning! This is going to be interesting!

Tomorrow turns over a new leaf

Tomorrow begins my new journey to fitness! I am both excited and scared. I don't know what to think. I know that this is going to push me in order to maintain a schedule and to keep me motivated, but it's going to be hard work and I'm not talking "Marching Band" hard...but I mean, I was able to handle Marching Band for 4 years, I think i can handle this.

I haven't been eating super healthy this weekend. Mom and Dad have been away so Kali and I have been making simple, unhealthy meals.

I have a meeting with one of the trainers on Wednesday to figure out portion sizes and what foods i can eat and what I have to lay off. Excited and nervous again...i like to eat...that is why i look the way I do...so it's time to change my likes.

Anyways I am looking at the time and it's 10pm,  i have to be up at 4:45am. It's time to get off here and head to bed! Time to get my workout on in the morning!!!

Until tomorrow after my workout!
Sorina

Taking a step in the right direction

Wednesday I went into Crossfit Modesto to talk to the owner. Crysta has been going there since March (?) and has lost well over 50 pounds since being there. I joined her for Friend Week as soon as school ended for 3 days at the Bootcamp class. It was hard work but I enjoyed it by the end of the week. Grandpa mentioned how he noticed that I seemed more happy and active. He said if I were interested in joining, he would pay for it.

So on Wednesday, I went in while Crysta was working in the office and talked to the owner, Mike Choate. He gave me the paperwork that had the class schedules as well as the pricing. I was looking at the pricing for 3 days a week for the 6 week program. What was originally going to be over $225, he changed it because I am a student as well as Crysta's friend and I could get the 6 week program for $179. They have another option where I can sign up for 4 months and only have to pay $100 a month. I said I would like to try out the 6 week program and then decide where I want to go from there.

Wednesday night I went to a seminar offered by the Owner's wife that was talking about getting motivated and setting goals. I learned that it's the negative thoughts that make you hate something or not enjoy something. So no matter what, through my strenuous workouts I need to keep positive thoughts going through my head to keep me as motivated as possible.

My Mantra: Keep pushing!
My Workout words: One more!

My goal: I want to be back down to a size 14-16 by New Years! I want a whole new start for year 2012!

This blog is going to be a rant when I need it but I also want to have it as my thoughts and struggles through this transformation. I can do it! I know I can and I am going to give my 110% in order to reach my goal! I can do it!! I can!

I start Monday! So I am thinking I will have words on Monday regarding my workout! This is going to be a challenge but I'm willing to face it!

Until Monday!!
Rina

When you apologize, MEAN IT!

The following is a message i received from Stephen on facebook. The bolded commentary in ( ) is my words i wish i could tell him:

Hey Sorina, I just wanted to apoligize (for someone who likes to sounds so smart I can't believe you misspelled this word) personally (since when is messaging me on facebook PERSONAL?) for how harshly I described you. It was not appropriate to do as I did on your vacation and I should have waited until you got back ( Oh wait, you were going to wait till i got back to insult me and hurt me? Wow classy -.-). I feel bad that it hurt you as it did and that is in its essence what I am apologizing for: hurting you badly, probably worse than I intended ( So you are saying you were meaning to hurt me no matter what? Seriously, how much of an ass can you be?). I just wanted to get a point across that I did not think would stick otherwise (did you even try to put it in another way? NO! You were focused on you!). You can be a very nice, sweet person, as I saw when you brought Penny flowers (wow, you dated me for crying out loud! You just now see that I can be sweet?! Why the HELL did you date me and ask me to come visit all the time if you thought so little of me!). I know you prob wont care for me to be back in the friend group but I hope this apology helps in that way. (ARE YOU FREAKING KIDDING ME? This isn't an apology at all...you feel bad for making a girl cry...end of story! You feel NO regret for the things you said about me! You even told Crysta that you meant them! How dare you try to make up a sorry excuse for an apology and still insult me and put me down!)

So yea....that is what I had to come home to today. And then he tries to readd me on facebook.

Learn to apologize to my FREAKING FACE, then maybe i'll consider it.
Asshole.
A very upset Rina