Discouraged

Last week I was crazy busy along with getting very little sleep but I needed to get at least 2 workouts in a week. There wasn't Bootcamp so Kali and I had to join the Cross Fit class of that morning. The instructor ended up changing the workout for us because we were bootcampers and wanted us to do as many as we could in a certain amount of time. I did 3 rounds and then when he said we had 5 minutes left I went to him and said I was going to stop at 3 because of being exhausted. He seemed to get really upset that I was going to stop. As it is I am still sore from Saturday's workout.

I went to talk to the owner's wife today in order to get my measurements and she said she had to talk to me about Saturday. Apparently "people overheard" me tell him I was going to stop. He was right in front of me and Kali was the only one near me AND the music was blaring. So no, i don't think anyone else heard, I think he just ran his mouth or over-exaggerated. She said that to just give up and tell the instructor you were going to stop was extremely disrespectful. Then she said that since they are a tight-knitted group, things get around. So all i'm hearing is 1) The instructor doesn't like me and thinks that i was deliberately disrespecting him and 2) people who DON"T EVEN KNOW ME are talking badly about me.

This is the WORST way to get me motivated. This is the WORST WAY to make me want to continue working out there. As it is I have vowed to never go and work out there on a Saturday with that instructor ever again. I can't believe this.

Not only that but I got my measurements today and she didn't even seem proud of me. All she talked about was things I need to change :-( What the hell?! I know she is there to help me but at least tell me that I am doing a good job! Apparently I have to change my diet again and have LESS carbs! UGH! It's so hard to make food and take it with me on certain days....I don't know what to do.

I feel extremely discouraged and enraged and all I want to do is go cry in bed. I don't know what to do...

Ok seriously

School just started and I feel like I don't even have time to just BREATHE! Here is my schedule

Monday- Wake up 4:30am, workout 5:30-6:30am, come home, shower, make breakfast, get food together for the day, get dressed, gather things for school, go to school 11-3pm, drive home, eat something, lay down for an hour, get up and go to work 6-close, come home and crash in my bed

Tuesday- Wake at 7:30am, get ready, go to school, at school till 3pm, get home to quickly grab all my stuff for work, work 4:30-8:30pm but they usually have me stay later, come home, get some reading in, check email, get food, crash in my bed.

Wednesday is similar to Monday's schedule but I actually have the day off in order to rest up and get homework done. I would have done homework last night but it was Jessica's last night in the United States cuz she leaves today to go back to Sweden. I had to visit with her!

Today is like Tuesday but I don't have to go straight to work. I don't have to work till 6:15 but I still close.

Friday is like Monday except this Friday I am leaving super early in the morning with my dad to go fishing in Monterey! I am super excited! I haven't gotten to spend time with just dad since October of last year! It's going to be a nice Daddy/Daughter Day! Yay!

Then Saturday the whole family is coming over for a BBQ and swimming. My Oakdale friends are coming over to visit, grub and jump in! I can't wait. This is going to be the first time we have all REALLY gotten to hang out in almost 2 years!! I can't wait.

I have church on Sunday and I close. Closing is going to suck SO bad on Sunday because EVERYONE is off on Monday. Luckily I get to sleep in on Monday so it won't feel as bad but I will still have to work that evening. UGH!

I wanted to write about everything going on with my workout but I never have the time. I can say that I am officially fitting in my size 24 pants! YAY! People keep saying that my face looks slimmer and I look like i have lost weight. I am going to post some pictures!!


This is me and Mom on Friday July 29th. Look at my face.


This is me after 3 weeks of Crossfit! I took this Tuesday August 23!


I just love this picture. My face looks like it is slimming down!!

I know i haven't typed about my workouts but I would say these pictures are evidence that something is working :-)

Until i have a brief moment to type again
Rina