I love books! I have them everywhere!! I need to get a few bookcases because on my account on goodreads.com i have over 300 books in my to-read alone... My friends, Anna, Sarah, and I all swap books so I have 3 bags full from Anna of books and a few others from Sarah.
I just finished reading this book called The Cupcake Queen. I originally bought it at a Scholastic bookfair. That means it was written mainly for kids in Junior high. Though it was for a younger crowd, it was a very good book. I liked how it was clean and sweet. It's lesson was to not hold on to the past. Even though life will surprise you when you least expect it, don't dwell on the past because it won't help you to advance in life and see what is really around you.
I just picked up this book from my friend Anna called Poison. She absolutely loves the author so she says it is good...my friend Jesus, however, said it was terrible. I like to make my own judgement on books. I am only in the book by a few pages because I fell asleep with my face IN the book last night but because I have so many books, I am trying to read thru them as quickly as possible.
Looking over my schedule for next semester, if I am not filling in my spare time with studying (which is a possibility starting a few weeks into the semester) Then I have decided I will be reading. I need to get thru these books so i can get more to read :-)
I love to read!
OK well I should be getting ready for church but I had this sudden craving to type....and in large quantities...SOOOOOO.....this is the production of that craving.
Until later,
ME
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Rina
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- 25 year old, fun loving, talkative girl who enjoys writing down her opinions and thoughts.
Sunday, July 31, 2011
Monday, July 25, 2011
Feeling Forgotten
So I feel like Crysta has forgotten about me. I hardly ever get texts from her anymore...i always seem to start the texts...she answers but it doesn't seem like I am top in her mind anymore.
She talks about making plans but then when I am free, she is in Turlock playing some game called ShadowRun with Stephen. :-/ I just don't get it. When my friends and I talk about games we play she says that it is a complete waste of time yet spending hours upon hours on Sundays is alright to go and play ShadowRun? Doesn't seem right to me...
On to another note, things at work have picked up. We had a supervisor come in on Friday, pick up her paycheck and say "See ya, I QUIT!" and left. She was supposed to do the prep that day. So since then, I have been helping out on prep and I finally have over 20 hours next week! So I work Monday and Tuesday, I am going to Discovery Kingdom on Wednesday then work Thursday and Friday, my cousins wedding is Friday evening and then work Saturday and then Sunday I have church and I get to hang with JASON. This is his last time in town till THANKSGIVING!
I am so thankful for Skype. It makes it so easy to keep in contact with friends all over the world. Jessica is in Sweden and I get to talk to her. Nicole is in Guam...I can't wait till she gets back. I get to talk to Sarah when she is in Spain and talk to Jason as he is in Fresno. It's just a great thing :-)
OK well thir wasn't a rant or anything angry...just felt like typing :-)
until later,
Sorina
She talks about making plans but then when I am free, she is in Turlock playing some game called ShadowRun with Stephen. :-/ I just don't get it. When my friends and I talk about games we play she says that it is a complete waste of time yet spending hours upon hours on Sundays is alright to go and play ShadowRun? Doesn't seem right to me...
On to another note, things at work have picked up. We had a supervisor come in on Friday, pick up her paycheck and say "See ya, I QUIT!" and left. She was supposed to do the prep that day. So since then, I have been helping out on prep and I finally have over 20 hours next week! So I work Monday and Tuesday, I am going to Discovery Kingdom on Wednesday then work Thursday and Friday, my cousins wedding is Friday evening and then work Saturday and then Sunday I have church and I get to hang with JASON. This is his last time in town till THANKSGIVING!
I am so thankful for Skype. It makes it so easy to keep in contact with friends all over the world. Jessica is in Sweden and I get to talk to her. Nicole is in Guam...I can't wait till she gets back. I get to talk to Sarah when she is in Spain and talk to Jason as he is in Fresno. It's just a great thing :-)
OK well thir wasn't a rant or anything angry...just felt like typing :-)
until later,
Sorina
Wednesday, July 13, 2011
And the loneliness begins...
On Saturday I went and talked with my friend about everything that has been going on.
I asked her why she had to tell me all this information ON my grandpa's birthday and when i wasn't home. She said she wanted to wait until I got home to sit down and talk it all over with me but Stephen wasn't liking that all she was doing was thinking about me and my feelings and he sat her down and told her to that she had to tell me, right then and there. I used to date him and he doesn't back down...he is insanely persistent.
I asked her why she agreed with him calling me malicious, vindictive and petty and she said, "He called you WHAT?!" Her jaw was set and you can tell she wasn't happy. She said that if she had known, she would have given him a strong tongue lashing. Then she told me that he was telling her that i was saying some pretty mean things about her that made her sound like a tramp. I explained that I would never do something like that and he twisted things that i said around!
Mom thinks that he is trying to drive a wedge between us. She and I have a very strong bond and it's like he is jealous of that so he is trying to tear us apart...
I haven't seen her since Saturday, I tried asking if she was free at all tonight....she usually texts me right back. Well i just texted her a few minutes ago...9pm and she says Stephen is over and they are making dinner for her mom. UGH! This is why I can't stand my friends getting boyfriends! I get forgotten and i bloody HATE IT!
I know I'm sounding like a jealous person....yes I have jealousy issues :-( but seriously! He isn't who he says he is....I am having a very hard time knowing he is only a ten minute drive away. I want to drive over there and hit him so hard his freaking BRAIN rattles in his head!
I can't stand being so full of this anger ALL THE TIME! I don't have a vent anymore. She was my vent....but no girl wants to hear her best friend BASH her boyfriend. So thank goodness for books. They will be my best friends from now on!
UGH!
I asked her why she had to tell me all this information ON my grandpa's birthday and when i wasn't home. She said she wanted to wait until I got home to sit down and talk it all over with me but Stephen wasn't liking that all she was doing was thinking about me and my feelings and he sat her down and told her to that she had to tell me, right then and there. I used to date him and he doesn't back down...he is insanely persistent.
I asked her why she agreed with him calling me malicious, vindictive and petty and she said, "He called you WHAT?!" Her jaw was set and you can tell she wasn't happy. She said that if she had known, she would have given him a strong tongue lashing. Then she told me that he was telling her that i was saying some pretty mean things about her that made her sound like a tramp. I explained that I would never do something like that and he twisted things that i said around!
Mom thinks that he is trying to drive a wedge between us. She and I have a very strong bond and it's like he is jealous of that so he is trying to tear us apart...
I haven't seen her since Saturday, I tried asking if she was free at all tonight....she usually texts me right back. Well i just texted her a few minutes ago...9pm and she says Stephen is over and they are making dinner for her mom. UGH! This is why I can't stand my friends getting boyfriends! I get forgotten and i bloody HATE IT!
I know I'm sounding like a jealous person....yes I have jealousy issues :-( but seriously! He isn't who he says he is....I am having a very hard time knowing he is only a ten minute drive away. I want to drive over there and hit him so hard his freaking BRAIN rattles in his head!
I can't stand being so full of this anger ALL THE TIME! I don't have a vent anymore. She was my vent....but no girl wants to hear her best friend BASH her boyfriend. So thank goodness for books. They will be my best friends from now on!
UGH!
Friday, July 8, 2011
I AM SO SICK OF THIS!
What kind of friend goes after her best friends' ex boyfriend? What kind of friend, knowing that her best friend cares about this boy so much and STILL goes out with him after talking to him for THREE FREAKING DAYS?!
I am SO SICK of being a second rate friend! I am so sick of being shoved aside...It's like my feelings don't matter! Does she not even care? I finally move on like she told me to and this is what happens? She falls for him instead?! Not only that but 4 days before, he had his arm around me and was holding my hand and hinting he wanted to kiss me and told me he wanted to lose his freaking virginity to me?! What the hell?!?! He played me....played me good and then turns around and says there is NO chance of us ever getting back together and he called me vindictive (meaning revengeful), petty (meaning i am narrow minded) and malicious (meaning i am full of malice). I have never been these things nor will i ever! The only thing that could be the closest to describing me would be petty. But even that is harsh!
Is he so desperate to tear us apart? The thing that hurts me the most is when i told her that he was saying some mean things she said he was telling me the truth. Ow! That is like a slap across the face. If you agree with him about all of those why are you my friend? Those are hateful words. How could you say something like that to me.
The worst part....the WORST PART, is that it is like walking on egg shells with you now! Everything i say is suddenly an "attack" on you! Why can't we just be the way we were, without him....he is ruining EVERYTHING!
It's so sad that I had to have someone say "He wears more masks than at a freaking Masquerade" to finally realize how FAKE he is! He alters his attitude and personality to fit the person who is interested in him! Did i even date the REAL him? I can guarantee that he is just playing you. You are way experienced and he is at the point where he WANTS to lose his virginity, he also now knows that you get crazy flirty and horny when you are drunk. He flat out admitted to me he wants to experience a blow job and losing his virginity.
I don't know what to believe anymore. Who is Stephen Gregory Woods? Definitely not the guy either of us are looking at. He is different with each person he encounters.
I just want our friendship back! I am tired of shedding tears! I am tired of being hurt by people. I am starting to think my only options is to keep moving....and stick with my books. It's safer that way. I just don't see how she could disrespect my feelings in a way that she goes behind my back to date him! I need to find myself some girls who are married....and happily married! Then maybe i won't have to worry about pain....
Why is it that it takes extreme measures to push me over the edge to write all my thoughts and feelings down? When i finally feel like there is no where else to turn, i turn to writing it all down. It feels so good to write things down, i don't know why I avoid it and save it to the last possible option.
On a good note. I got to hang with Anna yesterday, got to talk to Sarah and Jason and today I got to talk to Brad for the first time in YEARS! Poor guy....he also is dealing with a break up.
OK i think i am calming down....I need to dry my tears, wipe my face, put on a, what i hope to be, convincing smile and get ready for work.
Until i get another outburst of frustration. Hopefully it won't take that to get me writing again.
Sorina
I am SO SICK of being a second rate friend! I am so sick of being shoved aside...It's like my feelings don't matter! Does she not even care? I finally move on like she told me to and this is what happens? She falls for him instead?! Not only that but 4 days before, he had his arm around me and was holding my hand and hinting he wanted to kiss me and told me he wanted to lose his freaking virginity to me?! What the hell?!?! He played me....played me good and then turns around and says there is NO chance of us ever getting back together and he called me vindictive (meaning revengeful), petty (meaning i am narrow minded) and malicious (meaning i am full of malice). I have never been these things nor will i ever! The only thing that could be the closest to describing me would be petty. But even that is harsh!
Is he so desperate to tear us apart? The thing that hurts me the most is when i told her that he was saying some mean things she said he was telling me the truth. Ow! That is like a slap across the face. If you agree with him about all of those why are you my friend? Those are hateful words. How could you say something like that to me.
The worst part....the WORST PART, is that it is like walking on egg shells with you now! Everything i say is suddenly an "attack" on you! Why can't we just be the way we were, without him....he is ruining EVERYTHING!
It's so sad that I had to have someone say "He wears more masks than at a freaking Masquerade" to finally realize how FAKE he is! He alters his attitude and personality to fit the person who is interested in him! Did i even date the REAL him? I can guarantee that he is just playing you. You are way experienced and he is at the point where he WANTS to lose his virginity, he also now knows that you get crazy flirty and horny when you are drunk. He flat out admitted to me he wants to experience a blow job and losing his virginity.
I don't know what to believe anymore. Who is Stephen Gregory Woods? Definitely not the guy either of us are looking at. He is different with each person he encounters.
I just want our friendship back! I am tired of shedding tears! I am tired of being hurt by people. I am starting to think my only options is to keep moving....and stick with my books. It's safer that way. I just don't see how she could disrespect my feelings in a way that she goes behind my back to date him! I need to find myself some girls who are married....and happily married! Then maybe i won't have to worry about pain....
Why is it that it takes extreme measures to push me over the edge to write all my thoughts and feelings down? When i finally feel like there is no where else to turn, i turn to writing it all down. It feels so good to write things down, i don't know why I avoid it and save it to the last possible option.
On a good note. I got to hang with Anna yesterday, got to talk to Sarah and Jason and today I got to talk to Brad for the first time in YEARS! Poor guy....he also is dealing with a break up.
OK i think i am calming down....I need to dry my tears, wipe my face, put on a, what i hope to be, convincing smile and get ready for work.
Until i get another outburst of frustration. Hopefully it won't take that to get me writing again.
Sorina
Tuesday, July 5, 2011
So far, I hate 2011
This year is the year of heartbreak and pain! It's not a fun year AT ALL! Can i just pull a Sleeping Beauty and sleep until the clock strikes 12am on January 1, 2012?
Not wanting to go into detail....eventually....maybe....i'll talk about it later...
Not wanting to go into detail....eventually....maybe....i'll talk about it later...
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