I have so many thoughts that I want to put down. I have been keeping notes about them in my phone as not to forget, I just want to clear my mind right now and study for my test. Mind clearing consists of Glee, reading and bundling up. Blogging all my thoughts is going to have to wait till tomorrow night. I have a ton to say, just don't have the time to say it now. I am a busy busy bee tomorrow. Calc test, babysitting, tutoring, cut stuff out for work, movie night with Crysta. My poor Crysta! She tore a tendon in her hip and is on crutches. So i am going to take care of her! More tomorrow night
<3 Sorina
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Thursday, February 24, 2011
Monday, February 21, 2011
Family is Important...today...tomorrow....always
I love my family members, but sometimes, they need to grow up and stop letting drama get in the way of loving each other.
I get to our little family reunion to find out that one of my aunts and one of my cousins are no longer speaking to each other. Honestly, the whole silent treatment is a little elementary in my opinion. I mean, yes, we all have tempers and we are all extremely stubborn but should we really let this get in the way of us loving each other and enjoying each others' presence? Apparently to that one cousin and that one aunt, it is something to let get in the way. I thought family is there for each other to love and accept, not slander one for looking too skinny and sick or to bash one another and then to delete and block each other on facebook. I seriously feel like all of this is blow WAY out of proportion and they all need to GROW UP and take responsibility for their actions and ther words and learn to say SORRY!
I haven't seen my family members since Thanksgiving because I was in Louisiana for Christmas when everyone was over. I was really looking forward to seeing my family, all my cousins and all, and getting time to visit with them and see how things are going. However, I find myself in the same situation as always, feeling like I don't belong. My cousin Elizabeth and I haven't ever really been close, she is 6 years older than me, so I completely understand why I'm not included in her conversations, but she has a one year old beauty named Brooklyn. Brooklyn is my cousin but I have only seen her in person twice since she was born. How can I call this little child a part of my family when I feel like she isn't? When I talk about her all I say is "My cousin's baby" I never say "my cousin". I feel as though this is because I don't really associate her in the same category as my cousin Elizabeth, her mother. Then there is Stefanie. She is a year older than me. We were really close when we were younger but as soon as she started middle school, she was more about the boys than spending time with me. She hangs a lot with her fiance and her sister and her brother in law as well as my cousin Leonard and his new girlfriend Jessica. They are such a tight knit group, i feel as though not only would I be imposing if I were to sit at their table with them, but I also would just be an awkward fit. My cousin Rebecca has her boyfriend Devin, who is beginning to grow on me though there is still just something about him that I'm not crazy for. Lina brought 2 of her friends, I don't think I really had the change to say much to her. Then there is Tatiana and Vienna, the babies of the first cousins. I got a chance to talk to them but I mean, they are 12 and 8. I need someone to spend time with in my family who is closer to my age. Around the time we ate, I felt a little better, but still outside the loop.
Even after my busy and tiring day along with the feel of isolation, it was a good day. Was nice to see my family and have some wonderful Romanian food and celebrate the fact that my family has been in the United States for 30 years now. God is amazing. If He didn't lead my Tatia (grandpa in Romanian) to move to the States, I would never have been born.
Thank you Lord for a strong, growing family.
~Sorina
I get to our little family reunion to find out that one of my aunts and one of my cousins are no longer speaking to each other. Honestly, the whole silent treatment is a little elementary in my opinion. I mean, yes, we all have tempers and we are all extremely stubborn but should we really let this get in the way of us loving each other and enjoying each others' presence? Apparently to that one cousin and that one aunt, it is something to let get in the way. I thought family is there for each other to love and accept, not slander one for looking too skinny and sick or to bash one another and then to delete and block each other on facebook. I seriously feel like all of this is blow WAY out of proportion and they all need to GROW UP and take responsibility for their actions and ther words and learn to say SORRY!
I haven't seen my family members since Thanksgiving because I was in Louisiana for Christmas when everyone was over. I was really looking forward to seeing my family, all my cousins and all, and getting time to visit with them and see how things are going. However, I find myself in the same situation as always, feeling like I don't belong. My cousin Elizabeth and I haven't ever really been close, she is 6 years older than me, so I completely understand why I'm not included in her conversations, but she has a one year old beauty named Brooklyn. Brooklyn is my cousin but I have only seen her in person twice since she was born. How can I call this little child a part of my family when I feel like she isn't? When I talk about her all I say is "My cousin's baby" I never say "my cousin". I feel as though this is because I don't really associate her in the same category as my cousin Elizabeth, her mother. Then there is Stefanie. She is a year older than me. We were really close when we were younger but as soon as she started middle school, she was more about the boys than spending time with me. She hangs a lot with her fiance and her sister and her brother in law as well as my cousin Leonard and his new girlfriend Jessica. They are such a tight knit group, i feel as though not only would I be imposing if I were to sit at their table with them, but I also would just be an awkward fit. My cousin Rebecca has her boyfriend Devin, who is beginning to grow on me though there is still just something about him that I'm not crazy for. Lina brought 2 of her friends, I don't think I really had the change to say much to her. Then there is Tatiana and Vienna, the babies of the first cousins. I got a chance to talk to them but I mean, they are 12 and 8. I need someone to spend time with in my family who is closer to my age. Around the time we ate, I felt a little better, but still outside the loop.
Even after my busy and tiring day along with the feel of isolation, it was a good day. Was nice to see my family and have some wonderful Romanian food and celebrate the fact that my family has been in the United States for 30 years now. God is amazing. If He didn't lead my Tatia (grandpa in Romanian) to move to the States, I would never have been born.
Thank you Lord for a strong, growing family.
~Sorina
Saturday, February 19, 2011
Life in general...
I haven't been on here in a while and I feel terrible! I really should write on here more often in order to organize my thoughts and to get them out of my head or else they are just floating around in there and driving me CRAZY!!
Work:
Work is....well it's not going as smoothly as I want. Tired of my boss getting on my case and being totally mean about the things she says to me. When she gets mad about something, she starts bringing up things that you or other people have done in the past and I don't think that is fighting fairly. It definitely isn't fighting maturely. When you have not only the Assistant Manager but other coworkers claim they are scared of her, then you know there is a problem. I already left a store because of the way the manager treats her employees, I am to the point where i would go back to that old manager than to deal with the verbal abuse from the one I have now. She has known me since I was 18. She knows very well that yelling at me is NOT the way to get me to move. I am all for getting corrected, but not yelled at and blamed for things going on in the store that are out of my control. I just don't like how she gets in my face and just keeps laying it on and laying it on. She doesn't stop. Most people who have a problem with something you do gets it off their chest and then moves on, but she just KEEPS. GOING! She pushes me to almost breaking point. If i do break, there is no doubt my mouth would spew words out so fast that I would be fired in the blink of an eye. I try to help ease her stress when she is in a bad mood but those attempts seem to go unnoticed.
School:
So far things are going great at school. I started on January 27th. I only have 3 classes, 6 units. I have Calculus 2, Calculus 2 Lab, and Symphony Band. After this semester I should be able to get back to a full time schedule and be well on my way to getting finished. I am looking at about 3 more years then one year to get my credential. I can't wait! I am ready to be a teacher! I am ready to get my career going and my life started.
Home:
Things at home are actually going quite well. Dad took Kali and me shooting last Friday. It was fun and it was nice to spend time with dad. We don't usually get to do that all too often. I got Koda declawed. It was hard to see him so sad to have the cone collar on, but now that it is off, he is so much more happier and relaxed. He can actually sleep comfortably and eat! He still walks funny, but I think that is because it feels funny. He will get more used to it as time goes on. Grandpa has been doing well. He will be 90 years old in less than 6 months. It's crazy! He has been blessed with such a long life and steady health so far. We ask that God allows him to be as healthy for longer. We are planning a trip to Disneyland for his 90th birthday with my family and my Aunt, Uncle and cousins. It's going to be fun! I can't wait. I haven't been to Disneyland since my senior year of high school.
Those are the 3 things that are carrying the most weight on my shoulders right now. Church is also a major aspect of my life but things really haven't changed there. I am still playing the flute for worship and I am still learning more about God's Glory and Mercy. As I have said in the past, I would really like to write on here more. I think getting back to the good part of my day, bad part of my day and how I overcame it is a good thing to start up again. It helped me to analyze the events that are going on in my life. I have a feeling there will be more about my boss and her abusive words towards me. I swear, she is going to force me to record everything she says to me if she keeps this up.
Until later,
Sorina
Work:
Work is....well it's not going as smoothly as I want. Tired of my boss getting on my case and being totally mean about the things she says to me. When she gets mad about something, she starts bringing up things that you or other people have done in the past and I don't think that is fighting fairly. It definitely isn't fighting maturely. When you have not only the Assistant Manager but other coworkers claim they are scared of her, then you know there is a problem. I already left a store because of the way the manager treats her employees, I am to the point where i would go back to that old manager than to deal with the verbal abuse from the one I have now. She has known me since I was 18. She knows very well that yelling at me is NOT the way to get me to move. I am all for getting corrected, but not yelled at and blamed for things going on in the store that are out of my control. I just don't like how she gets in my face and just keeps laying it on and laying it on. She doesn't stop. Most people who have a problem with something you do gets it off their chest and then moves on, but she just KEEPS. GOING! She pushes me to almost breaking point. If i do break, there is no doubt my mouth would spew words out so fast that I would be fired in the blink of an eye. I try to help ease her stress when she is in a bad mood but those attempts seem to go unnoticed.
School:
So far things are going great at school. I started on January 27th. I only have 3 classes, 6 units. I have Calculus 2, Calculus 2 Lab, and Symphony Band. After this semester I should be able to get back to a full time schedule and be well on my way to getting finished. I am looking at about 3 more years then one year to get my credential. I can't wait! I am ready to be a teacher! I am ready to get my career going and my life started.
Home:
Things at home are actually going quite well. Dad took Kali and me shooting last Friday. It was fun and it was nice to spend time with dad. We don't usually get to do that all too often. I got Koda declawed. It was hard to see him so sad to have the cone collar on, but now that it is off, he is so much more happier and relaxed. He can actually sleep comfortably and eat! He still walks funny, but I think that is because it feels funny. He will get more used to it as time goes on. Grandpa has been doing well. He will be 90 years old in less than 6 months. It's crazy! He has been blessed with such a long life and steady health so far. We ask that God allows him to be as healthy for longer. We are planning a trip to Disneyland for his 90th birthday with my family and my Aunt, Uncle and cousins. It's going to be fun! I can't wait. I haven't been to Disneyland since my senior year of high school.
Those are the 3 things that are carrying the most weight on my shoulders right now. Church is also a major aspect of my life but things really haven't changed there. I am still playing the flute for worship and I am still learning more about God's Glory and Mercy. As I have said in the past, I would really like to write on here more. I think getting back to the good part of my day, bad part of my day and how I overcame it is a good thing to start up again. It helped me to analyze the events that are going on in my life. I have a feeling there will be more about my boss and her abusive words towards me. I swear, she is going to force me to record everything she says to me if she keeps this up.
Until later,
Sorina
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