Reliving the Past

I was going through my old Xanga posts. I got so much more in depth when I was in high school than I do now.

I used to love to write. I wrote stories, I wrote journal entries...I wrote so much, but since changing majors to math and having professors in English make me feel like I am a horrible writer, I haven't had a desire to write. I still love to read but i stopped writing in journals, online...stories. Shouldn't professors encourage you rather than put you down? That is what happened....they put my writing down because each professor demanded a different writing style.

I also think the reason I don't get into depth anymore is because I am afraid of what might come pouring out from my mind to my fingers. High school was simple....i was a minor and I didn't have to worry about saying something that could affect my future. Now, I feel like anytime I try to think the way I want to think and to just be SORINA. I can't. I have to worry about did i say something wrong? Who will see this? Will it get me in trouble? What are the consequences? Shouldn't someone just feel comfortable to be themselves in their own space? That is what this blog is, my own space. I need to be able to freely open up and pour my heart and mind out. I need to be able to be ME and not have to worry about the consequences of thinking what i think! Like I said before, I doubt people really even read this...so I shouldn't have to worry about it getting into the wrong ears.

Ok....time to open up.....what can I open up about....

Yesterday I called and reported my boss for harassment. On Tuesday she tried to blackmail me and I didn't think that was right. So I called Human Relations and told them about it and that I had evidence. The assistant manager was in the office with me when this was said so I wrote what was said to me down and had the assistant sign it saying that she was a witness. The A.M. called me and asked what was up. I explained everything that happened and he asked what I would like to see happen. I said i didn't know if she is currently under a lot of stress or not but she needs to learn that are some things you can and cannot say to your employees. He agreed and said he would talk with her. I said I didn't want her to retaliate by cutting my hours and such. He said he would keep an eye on my hours and make sure I wasn't being shorted. I feel a little better about the situation. I am still nervous having to deal with her but I have a lot of coworkers who feel the same way and (i think) will back me up if anything else happens.

There...I opened up and said what i needed to say! There is more I need to say but those are regarding other subjects....and I will have to talk about them later.
Until later!
~Rina