Just another day in....Where is this again?

I never even got the chance to write on here last night.

Every Thursday my church has College Group. We usually meet at 7pm, eat some food, play a game or 2 and then have Bible Study. We used to have close to 30 people coming to College Group and then drama happened and it tore up the group. We now only have about 8-10 who come on a regular basis. I wish I could say that I am one of those members who comes all the time, but I'm not. I don't enjoy the company of the immature new college freshman that go. I like to go when my best friend Crysta goes because then I have someone to talk to and sit with. Last night I managed to get my sister to go and then my friend Dustun wanted to go. I am not going to deprive someone of God so I gave him a ride.

After College Group I took Dustun home and Kali's friend Steven came over to watch a movie. Haha he wanted to watch House Bunny. So I watched it with them and then came upstairs...read and went to bed.

I have been thinking about Bryan more and more lately. I know I have dulled my thoughts and feelings about him but it's hard to push the love I have for him from my mind and my chest. I get so excited when I get to talk to him or get a text....i never thought I could love someone so long even after they rejected me and pushed me away and told me they didn't love me anymore. I don't think it helped talking to his best friend and having him say to me "You guys will get back together! It's predictable" :-/ Bryan flat out said he didn't love me anymore and wanted to just be friends. How on earth is that predictable? I didn't want to have hope of getting back together because if i get rejected again it'll hurt so bad. I don't think my heart can handle being rejected from the love of my life twice. I don't want to cry anymore. I love him so much...and I want the best for him but I can't let myself have hope....

Well, that is all i want to say tonight....
Until tomorrow,
Rina